Sunday 7 October 2007

Roll's gone...tilt got the better of me


Past few days i have realised, despite being a profitable player (see sharkscope or official poker rankings) i am not a very good player. Why i say this is because i do not have the ability to keep my head. When i suffer a bad beat or numerous bad beats in a short time i chase my money on higher tables, i lose my head and i start playing really really badly. Im starting to get aggrovated by the fish when they make bad plays and get lucky and take it up with them in chat.
Why have i changed?? I used to be a quiet yet profitable player who could take a bad beat and carry on busting the fish, i could build my roll no problem and used to avoid tilt quite simply. I was able to tear up most of the 1 table sit and go's and make a healthy profit, i was able to use bankroll management effectively without steaming and needing to play higher. I think i know the cause and its similar to 'bluescouse' in my opinion. Ive been blinded by the higher stakes and now the stakes i play with mean nothing to me, which is where im wrong, it does mean something to me, infact its a lot of money to me. Ive lost the ability to understand the value of money and what im playing with. I dont think it is going to change and i dont think i can successfully build a roll from less than $200 because i end up losing it. Although this may sound that i am reconsidering playing poker as much as i do, which is true, i doubt i will change, i feel im addicted to poker already after a short period of time playing.
Also, i don't use any table selection, i jump straight into the game with no information on my opponents, no bankroll management and have no idea how i will get on. My confidence in my game has just plummited. All i need is a boost of confidence, a deep tourney result, a big win in cash, or just little things like a progressive income everyday, a 1st place finish in the bloggerment.....i just need to something, just to keep the faith.
Im 80% sure that most poker players have felt this way i am feeling now and i am very curious how they overcame this. Any help will be very much appreciated.

17 comments:

Thomas Kennedy said...

You are not along on your feelings! I'v been there, done that! It wasn't until I put in place proper bankroll management rules that I was able to avoid large losses due to tilting. Since then I haven't gone broke once. I hope you are able to do the same.

pokertaswegian said...

thankls for the comment on my blog mate. I hope you get the tilt monkey off your back...I know what it feels like.

P.S I have linked you up.

Kirby the German Roofer said...

Port deco my m8, my blogs fallen to pieces since you havent paid a visit. I think im gona have to stop blogging from now on, just wat am i to do m8? i dont know i dont know!! where did it all go wrong?? i had every1 enjoyin the blog then i had to go n take it to far! why did i have to go n spoil things? i know ive only got myself to blame. But ... but ... why Lord?? Iv been tilted for the last month or so, and these posts are jus a reflection of the mess goin on in my head. Im not a racist, nor a poofter!! Yet i feel the need to crack jokes and belittle ppl, especially fellow bloggers who i admire n hav the upmost respect for. Amatay for example, hes an inspiration to me, fat chops, but you cant win em all. I jus hope deep down, deep deep down, in your hearts of hearts you can forgive my actions. Im not a bad lad as ive said, i jus get way to carried away. I offer my apologises if you were offended by the language and images used in my blog. Forever an avid fan of yours, roofer.

portdeco20 said...

i find it hard to beleive that your apology for being such a prick to most is genuine. Although you never really said anything about me, that why ur apologising here?? im most likely to 4give u and then get every1 else to?? maybe~??

i just dont beleive u sorry

Anonymous said...

hmmmm....

very fishy IMO.

Anonymous said...

LMAO!!Quality

Anonymous said...

Yea cos I really respect a small stakes playing, broke nit. Im with roofer on this one. Whats the point in having a poker blog if its going to be boring and unexciting low limit grinding/going broke like portdecos abysmal blog.

Anonymous said...

Also may I add that it is simple for anyone to get there blog linked up so long as they are sad enough to go round spouting the usual 'Hi, nice blog, any chance of a link swap shit'

BurnleyMik would you also care to bankroll portdeco until he is back on his feet then if you respect him so much? I for one would never see a poker friend of mine who I respect as a person and player be out ofhe game as hes broke, I would always roll them as much as I could afford, and they would/have done the same for me.

Now is time to see who does respect you and who are your real mates portdeco.....

Anonymous said...

That is the most ridiculous thing I have ever read.

So if you respect someone you should give them money? LMFAO. What would that do so his self respect?? not a thing.

Also you are judging Port by his stake levels, what has that got to do with the type of person he is? it's you who was here reading this and leaving the comment in the first place, so why would you do that if it was so boring???

Very contradictory.

Anyway, stay anonymous like the coward you are.

portdeco20 said...

its ok burnley, u don't have to stick up for me. i knowmy blog is shit for any commenters who think its going to get me down by saying so! its not, ive mentioned numerous times i write a shit blog! but i like writing, and i like looking back at what ive
written previuosly. Anyways, most players blogs i have linked on my blog links are small stakes players! so wats ur point?? much of them are very well respected...you are entitled to your opinion!

Anonymous said...

"portdeco20 said...
thanks guys, its gunna be a while before i can put money in my account, would anyone help me out, $5 would be a big help "

From the Sunday 15th of July post ( Big Tilt, Big Bust, Long Break )comment page BurnleyMik.

Thats what he thinks of his self respect, he has none! Proper little tramp he is begging for £2.50!!! Poor Poor Man.

Anonymous said...

lol.

You come here and slate port about his blog, but you stay anonymous?

I wonder why....

maybe people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.

Check In The Dark said...

Hey up Port,

So i have read the WHOOOOLE blog. Quiet a journey from the 5/10nl to the play money. Bank roll management to no management. I think that despite my knowledge that this is technically wrong and i am not encouraging you to play this way; i will assume that you are sensible and not really risking money you can't afford to lose. That being the case i will say that i enjoy the fact that this is a bit of an escape from all the strict BRM blogs. I will never know whether you have won 3k or are plaing 5c/10c.

Whatever happens good luck.

Also i have to say i cracked up at Roofer's comment. I know he is not nasty, just trying to be funny. Its not you, it could be anyone just take it with a pinch of salt. I think he is actually quite funny

portdeco20 said...

i used to think he was funny and sometimes still do, but i think he has taken a step too far when it comes to content on his blog, aswell as being racist and so on...

i guess it has been a bit of a journey yes, and thankyou for reading mate. best of luck

Anonymous said...

you have to stay confident and not go on tilt. Tilt is worse thing you can do in poker. I have done it so many times and lose money.

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