Sunday 23 December 2007

BLAAHHH!!

Here i go again, ranting and raving at the 'shit' play that gets lucky at low stakes. It gets so irritating! How many times do the poker sites want to reward the fish just so they will stay and make them more money?? And yes, i do think online poker is rigged, maybe not all, but some sites for definite. Blah blah blah at all the people who say it isn't and its just variance or whatever!! Ive lost my last 3 rolls, wasn't much to lose but still pissed off. Although i cannot play as well as i used to i still think i can play better than a lot of the players on these sites. But i like to play against stronger players because at least they know when to fold!

Everything is looking up though on the 'non-poker' side of things just to mention. I now have two jobs to earn me a bit of money, the new one is working behind the bar at a local pub which i quite like, you get to socialise while working which is alright. Working Christmas eve which is an ass but can't wait for Christmas day....just a big laze and a lush meal....and i got 3 =) here we come weight watchers ;)

hope you all have a good one

laters,

yours truly

portdeco20

Tuesday 11 December 2007

Sincere Apologies

Don't really know where to start this post so I'll start by saying sorry. Sorry for displaying my last post and not telling you guys whats happening, sorry for not being around as much as i was (RTR and bloggerment..etc...). There was a reason for not being involved with poker for the past months and that reason was depression.
November particularly was a distressing month for me. Me and my girlfriend had split up (again) but this time for good, i had fallen out with a few people from my football team and had to leave, i had suffered from paranoia which almost saw me quitting my course, and to top that a relative that has helped out my family an extraordinary amount over the last few years had past away. This not being enough to smite me, but i was also on a very bad run in poker for the few days in which my bankroll lasted.
It wasn't until early December, after taking some great advice off friends, family, colleagues, and such that i overcame a lot of this, a new start i felt was in order. I managed to sort my head out.
This sudden burst in self esteem saw me through my problems. i decided to stay on my course, now not caring what anyone thinks of me. I have found a new girlfriend who had also split with her boyfriend at a similar time and so we came to help each other through it which made it alot easier. I am also awaiting a confirmation of my transfer to a new football club which happen to be top of the league in the same league as my previous club. and i have accepted death as an inevitability.
On the poker side of things, i am currently grinding a small bankroll at low stakes just to build things back up again. Everything now is looking up again and i am very happy as opposed to weeks ago.
As for Christmas and new year coming up soon, i would like to thank everyone who has supported me, everyone who has read my blog and everyone who i know. I would like to wish you all a very merry Christmas and a happy new year x x

ATB

Yours Truely

portdeco20